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Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Pruning for perfection



Lost a dear friend today. She went home to be with the Lord, after a good fight for close to 2 weeks.

Am reminded of the fragility of life. Last saw her in August when I was back and we agreed to meet up again in April. Just finished my Jazz piano exams today when my Nokia beeped and there flashed the shocking message from Singapore. Was shocked, devastated, saddened... actually couldn`t think properly cos i guess the first reaction is usually denial and disbelief.

My friend was a good and faithful servant of God, thank you God for the friendship and many things that I could learn from her.

Been asking God a lot of questions recently: What are You trying to teach me? Is this the beginning of closure for sushiland?

I guess God is teaching me lessons in humility, time and time again, cos I keep forgetting that it is Him who enables me and somehow I keep letting my head get big and swollen from all the "I am so walking right with God now" moments.

This is the pruning season. Ouch. Painful.

But I will praise You, despite the darkness.
But I will thank You, in spite of the pain.
Because You love me enough, to take action before I fall even deeper.
Despite Your own pain.
Thank you for angels.
I know I am where I am today, who I am today, because of many silent prayers from people who care so much.
Teach me Lord, to have a heart so filled with your compassion and humility.
I will press on,
not my will but Yours be done, I will say.
I will put on my courage,
for I am your house.

"It is painful now but you will feel much better, if you drink more of this medicine called Humility."

J1 and J2, eat manna together and let`s strive on! ganbatte!!

My prayer today...

Today's Prayer
God, please, please give me an insatiable desire and thirst for Jesus, for Your Word, my Savior. Open my eyes that I may see myself as You see me, that I may see and love others from Your viewpoint, that You would be the absolute center and guiding light of my life. Refresh my daily walk that I may walk with You in quiet places, in heavenly places, and throughout all of life into eternity. Thank You, God, my source of life and comfort and being. Bless You, Lord. In Jesus' name, amen.
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When Satan Attacks Your Destiny
TGIF Today God Is First Volume 2, by Os Hillman
02-16-2009

"When the Philistines heard that David had been crowned king of Israel, they tried to capture him; but David was told that they were coming and went into the stronghold. The Philistines arrived and spread out across the valley of Rephaim. Then David asked the Lord, 'Shall I go out and fight against them? Will you defeat them for me?'" (2 Sam 5:17-19).


When you are about to enter your destiny, there is always opposition from Satan designed to prevent you from fulfilling your destiny.

When Jesus was born, Herod tried to kill him. When Jesus was baptized and fasted 40 days, Satan came to tempt Him in an effort to derail his destiny. When David had been anointed king over Israel, God's destiny had been revealed for all to see-even Satan. So, Satan raised up the Philistines to try and kill David's destiny.

However, in response, we see David do two things. First, he retreats to his stronghold. It is a place of protection. It is a quiet place. Second, he inquires of God. It is here that he inquires of God for the strategy to defeat his enemy. God reveals it to him and he goes on to defeat the Philistines. In fact, David NEVER lost a battle because he learned to inquire of God for the strategy to defeat his enemies.

Do you know God's intended destiny for your life? Beware of Satan's strategy to attack you in the place of your destiny. His desire is to take you off this divine path.

We must follow David's example in response to the enemy of our souls. We must retreat to our stronghold, seek the Lord, and listen for His answer. Then, we will fulfill the purpose for which God created us.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Partners in music - 伴奏者の心声

IN November 2002, the once great American soprano Kathleen Battle toured Australia. Eight years before shehad been fired by the Metropolitan Opera in New York for "unprofessional actions", but she continued to terrorise her piano accompanists in recital concerts. When the pianist for her Australian tour resigned, Sharolyn Kimmorley stepped in.

Pianist Piers Lane and singers Cheryl Barker and Peter Coleman-Wright
Kimmorley is a vastly experienced accompanist and opera coach, and no stranger to diva antics. "I knew what her reputation was, which is why her accompanist walked," she recalls. "But some innocent part of me believed that nobody could treat a colleague like that."

Battle could. The soprano, it seems, regarded Kimmorley not as a colleague but hired help. She alternately ignored and bullied her on stage, stamping her feet, beating time, sighing extravagantly. "Whatever I did was wrong," Kimmorley says. "It was a hideous experience. And it got worse as the tour progressed, as it became clearer that the audience was sympathising with me. I did my yoga breathing and tried to get on with it, but it was vile."

Audiences watched, aghast, as Battle's behaviour completely overshadowed her singing. The stage had become a gladiatorial arena, but the fascination was more than that.

Battle was an anachronism, an exotic visitor from a distant past. The classical music world has lost its tolerance for diva petulance, as accompanists have carried on a quiet campaign for civil rights. Seeing a singer treat an accompanist as Battle did was like realising that the male chauvinist still existed, dinosaur that you imagined he was.

The great visionary of the accompanist's cause was English pianist Gerald Moore (1899-1987). At the beginning of his career, Moore found that the accompanist was considered "a cipher of little importance, contributing no more to the success of the concert than the cloakroom attendant at the other end of the hall". He made it his life's work to address this, firing off letters of complaint when concert presenters failed to acknowledge him in the billing, thundering "in Johnsonian style" when a bystander inquired whether he belonged to the singer or the hall: "Sir, I belong to myself."

He not only elevated the art to a new level of professionalism but repeatedly told everyone how professional he was. On an Australian tour in 1953, he was so voluble on the subject that a stranger phoned him in his hotel room, saying Moore "ought to be ashamed of myself, that everybody was getting sick of the sight and the sound of my name".

Moore continued talking and playing, undeterred, and wrote a definitive text, The Unashamed Accompanist, alongside numerous entertaining memoirs. He elevated the status of the accompanist and paved the way for those who followed, including the great Australian pianist Geoffrey Parsons (1929-95).

Parsons is generally recognised to have been a superior pianist to Moore. (Worn down by a lifetime of comparisons, he could not help acknowledging this occasionally, remarking that "Uncle Gerald's fingers do let him down sometimes".) But as Moore's anointed successor, Parsons was grateful for his achievements. "The idea that an accompanist is like a mindless piece of blotting paper who just soaks up whatever is directed to him is a thing of the past," Parsons said. "Gerald Moore saw to that."

This month, Australian audiences have several opportunities to witness the accompanist as neither cipher nor blotting paper. London-based Australian pianist Piers Lane is on tour with singers Peter Coleman-Wright and Cheryl Barker for Musica Viva.

And Scottish pianist Malcolm Martineau is visiting Adelaide for the Festival of Accompanists, held to celebrate the 25th anniversary of the Accompanists' Guild of South Australia.

The guild was established in 1983 by pianist Diana Harris, who found that despite Moore's good efforts, the word accompanist was still "almost a term of derision: you were better seen and hardly heard".

A similar view was expressed by English pianist and composer Harold Craxton in a 1960 article for Time magazine, in which he declared that the greatest praise for an accompanist was: "You must have been good tonight, I did not notice you were there!"

Such a remark suggests that the ideal accompanist is a type of musical butler, discreet and invisible, and that the intricate piano parts of the great lieder tradition exist only as background, to flatter the singer or point them in the right tonal direction.

Never mind the psychological complexity of Hugo Wolf's lieder, realised harmonically in the piano parts; or the songs of Franz Schubert, in which the pianist creates the rustle of linden trees or the whirr of a spinning wheel; or the beginning of Robert Schumann's Dichterliebe, in which the singer supplies the words and the piano the ambivalence.

There is little danger that Lane will remain unnoticed on stage, performing songs by Richard Strauss, Wolf, Schumann and Felix Mendelssohn with Barker and Coleman-Wright. Lane is a fine accompanist and chamber musician, but he is best known as a soloist.

"Piers is still a concert pianist first and foremost, and the songs we have chosen for this tour reflect that," Coleman-Wright says. "They are very big piano pieces and are very much about the counterpoint between the voice and the piano. He has such an extraordinary technique that whatever you throw at him, he will be able to manage it."

Moore used to get territorial about piano soloists venturing into accompaniment; Parsons was more open-minded.

When Lane began his career, his manager urged him to cut out accompanying, and pianist Graham Johnson warned him that trying to play solo and accompany was "like bisexuality: perfectly possible, but other people find it hard to cope with". Parsons told him there was no reason he could not do both, which came as a relief to the young Lane, who was "greedy for a little of everything".

"A totally solo life can be a bit isolating," he admits. "I have always enjoyed the social aspect of making music with other musicians and friends. And I love poetry and words and languages, so song accompaniment indulges that passion in the nicest possible way."

Melbourne pianist Stephen McIntyre is taking part in the Festival of Accompanists this month alongside Martineau and confesses to a similar passion. Although McIntyre has enjoyed a versatile career as a pianist, he harbours a fantasy of "lots of captive singers and 10 years of doing only vocal accompanying. The piano and vocal parts are so interesting; the meaning of the words is fascinating."

It does sound a delicious use of a decade: imbibing large quantities of poetry and music each day, performing with that most flexible and thrilling of sounds, the human voice, to whose condition man-made instruments only aspire.

In his memoirs, Moore remembers an early word of advice from Landon Ronald, erstwhile accompanist to Nellie Melba: "Stick to accompanying, it is one of the most delightful of all tasks in music."

And Moore did have a delightful life, as he performed with the 20th century's most important singers, from Elisabeth Schwarzkopf to Dietrich Fischer-Dieskau and Kathleen Ferrier. Of Fischer-Dieskau, he writes that "we are musical intimates with a complete understanding, and in the course of our preparation each is vividly alive to the reactions of the other". Such a vision of musical paradise reveals the closeness at the heart of these relationships, in which much remains unsaid. A great accompanist's intuition sometimes approaches the telepathic.

"You have to second-guess the singer, know in advance their mechanism, how they breathe, how their minds work," Kimmorley explains. "You have to be one step ahead."

Coleman-Wright speaks of a similar intimacy with Lane. "You have to have a good friendship with your accompanist, so you get to know people's idiosyncracies and strengths," he says. "With someone like Piers, who we have been singing with for such a long time, we know each other so intimately: he knows our voices, we know his instrument. It's very collaborative."

Coleman-Wright has also worked with Martineau, whom he describes as "a different sort of accompanist. Malcolm is also a wonderful pianist, with a huge knowledge of the repertoire, but has chosen to specialise as an accompanist. He is happy to be in the background but, nonetheless, you have this incredibly strong support."

At the Festival of Accompanists, Martineau performs with New Zealand bass-baritone Jonathan Lemalu and judges the Geoffrey Parsons Award, a $6000 prize for young accompanists.

"To be an accompanist requires a combination of flexibility and integrity," Martineau says. "You must be versatile but must not lose what you want to do or your sense of the musical truth. If the singer has done their preparation, and is committed and emotionally honest, then there is always a way through. Most singers do have an instinctive truth."

At the festival, Martineau will be joined by McIntyre and Sydney-based David Miller for a series of masterclasses on the accompanist's art. Many of the skills of the accompanist can be taught, such as pianism, style and balance. Others are more difficult to convey, including diplomacy, intuition and empathy.

Parsons claimed to belong to the "old school that believes consideration for the singer is one of the most important things an accompanist has to do. Their instrument is prey to all sorts of ills so they sometimes get a bit edgy and need reassurance." Martineau makes a similar point: "You have to understand that it is a dangerous thing to be a singer, and be tolerant and aware of that."

Lane considers it the accompanist's job "to provide a calm centre during the storms of the singer's various neuroses".

All of these accompanists are great charmers; alongside their exemplary musicianship, they have the ability to make a singer feel loved and safe on stage.

It is a rare singer who cannot be placated by these versatile artists, gifted at the interpersonal and the musical, as Kimmorley found to her astonishment. Still recovering from her battle with Battle, six years later, she cannot subdue the empathy of her calling.

"Finally, I feel sorry for her," she says. "She was clearly not a well person." Her unforgivable sin was only that Battle noticed she was there.

The classical music world has lost its tolerance for bad behaviour from petulant divas, as accompanists have carried on a quiet campaign for recognition, writes Anna Goldsworthy | May 24, 2008
Article from: The Australian

http://www.theaustralian.news.com.au/story/0,25197,23729929-16947,00.html

なるほど。。。

Deep Things
TGIF Today God Is First Volume 2, by Os Hillman
02-02-2009

"He reveals the deep things of darkness and brings deep shadows into the light" (Job 12:22).

One of the great mysteries of the Kingdom is how God uses the darkest times in our lives to reveal greater depths of understanding of His ways. The only way we can receive these deeper things is to be driven to the depths of darkness. It is here that we discover important truths that He plans to use in our lives and the lives of others.

There is a process God uses to draw us into greater levels of intimacy. The first phase involves a depth of soul experience that causes great pain in our lives. We seek God for deliverance from the incredible emotional pain this causes. Our primary motivation for seeking God is to get out of our pain.

During this time, God meets us in the depths of darkness. We discover that He never left us but is in the midst of the darkness. We develop a new relationship with God. Gradually our motivation turns from removal of pain to love and intimacy with God. This is the place our Heavenly Father desires us to be.

During this season God will make spiritual deposits into your life. Others will be making withdrawals in the future from your life as well. You see, God reveals deep things in darkness that will be revealed in the light.

If you find yourself in great distress, know that God will bring your deep shadows into the light. The key to your deliverance is becoming satisfied in God. He becomes your all. He is your life. You will know your deliverance is near when your circumstances simply don't matter to you anymore.

Love the Lord your God with all your soul and see what things He will show you in the deep things of darkness.

Friday, February 06, 2009

Captured by grace

You know when God parted the clouds and throw this buzzing neon sign at you to get your attention?

God just sparked me today.

Sometimes, we really test His patience with our wilfulness, self-centredness, smart-aleckness.

Maybe God couldn`t bear to see me wrestling with something so insignificant. In fact, I think He tried to give me a gentle nudge, send caring people to counsel me, reveal stuff from scriptures when I read the Bible but still the hardheadedness and pride refuse to budge.

Ah, such stiff-necked people! (Deuteronomy 9:13)

God had to resort to using something so close to my heart, to make me open my eyes and heart to Him. Painful but yes, God, You finally caught my attention. I get your point. Or rather, points.

Your merciful warning: Don't get your fulfillment from the works of your hands or from the achievements of your own strength.

Your gentle assurance: Your faith and security is in me. Not anywhere else. Quit looking the wrong way and focus!

Your kind invite: Come to me, for my yoke is easy and my burden is light.

Thank you for angels in my life, for not giving me answers but instead throw me thought provoking questions for me to do a self-check on my spiritual/mental/emotional health.

"What is your priority right now?"

" Are you doing it for the right reason?"

Taking large mouthfuls of air to fill up my struggling lungs, a million and one thoughts flying through my brain, ready to give up hope and surrender, disappointment, pain, hurt, anger all ooozing out from my wounded heart... was that how You felt at the cross? I bet it was a million time worse.

Heartwrenching.

I finally know literally, what it means.

Was that You doing heart surgery on me, God?

I thank you that at the end of the day, You love me enough to capture me with Your grace, no matter how wilful, how arrogant, how hardened my heart was.

And I must admit, it feels much better after all the yucky things were yanked out of me.

This had been a really challenging week for me, lots of fighting going on within myself, learning to deal with many things that did not turn out as I thought they would. Perhaps, that was to be my time inside the whale`s belly, forcing me to focus on God otherwise which I will probably be doing 1001 other "more important" things.






The Real Me - Natalie Grant

Foolish heart looks like we're here again
Same old game of plastic smile
Don't let anybody in
Hiding my heartache, will this glass house break
How much will they take before I'm empty
Do I let it show, does anybody know?

[Chorus:]
But you see the real me
Hiding in my skin, broken from within
Unveil me completely
I'm loosening my grasp
There's no need to mask my frailty
Oh,Cause you see the real me

Painted on, life is behind a mask
Self-inflicted circus clown
I'm tired of the song and dance
Living a charade, always on parade
What a mess I've made of my existence
But you love me even now
And still I see somehow

But you see the real me
Hiding in my skin, broken from within
Unveil me completely
I'm loosening my grasp
There's no need to mask my frailty

Oh,Cause you see the real me
Wonderful, beautiful is what you see
When you look at me
You're turning the tattered fabric of my life into
A perfect tapestry
I just wanna be me

But you see the real me
Hiding in my skin, broken from within
Unveil me completely
I'm loosening my grasp
There's no need to mask my frailty

Oh,Cause you see the real me
And you love me just as I am
Wonderful, beautiful is what you see
When you look at me

What i missed this Chinese New Year

I am usually the photographer over at my maternal grandma`s (外婆) side so only managed to rip off these pictures from Aunt Abby`s facebook. *grin*

Grandma with the newest member of the Yong family - Baby Duncan!
(I have yet to see him!)


Duncan with his mummy, cousin Deborah and my mum~


新年初二: 华人嘛,就是吃咯!


Apparently, 只有新加坡(maybe 马来西亚too)才有的一道菜:捞鱼生!新年不可缺的哦!
Basically 有萝卜丝,小饼干,姜,生鱼片,冬粉(??),菜。。。 我也不懂有什么材料啦!



与其说它很好吃,我是觉得很好玩!很热闹, 新年就是要很high的嘛!

大家就用筷子,捞啊捞,然后说什么‘马到成功’,‘步步高升’,‘捞的风生水起’etc...重点是要把材料挟的高高的,显示富贵好运之类的。


请看我的excited妈妈的示范!*笑*


这也是重点- 捞完过后,桌子上要呈现出一片凌乱,才显示有捞到!


My paternal side's family (奶奶)- no 阿嬷 but still remembering her in spirit. ;)


Ethan and Ryan - 都长大了!!!


哥哥with 小叔and 三叔。


Ethan with his mummy Amanda, 妹妹的Mummy, 我的Mummy还有三姑(Amanda的Mummy).



食べたいなあ~~~~



Ethan with his grandmum. Ha! Finally can pose with vsign!
Thanks to Ethan`s Daddy (虽然没有出现在镜头!)for taking these photos and faithfully email-ing them to me!! You brought home just a little closer to my heart!

Monday, February 02, 2009

Today`s prayer

Dear Father and Creator, There are so many people who have marriage issues that need intervention. Sometimes one spouse is strong in the faith and the other is weak; sometimes one is held back by old strongholds that need to be broken; sometimes the communication line contains a lot of static and neither can hear the other clearly; sometimes one spouse carries much more responsibility than the other; sometimes the ungodly attitudes of selfishness, jealousy or laziness pop up and wreak havoc; sometimes the family is so busy that husband and wife do not make time to nurture their relationship--they just coexist; sometimes health issues strain the marriage. God there are sooo many things that pull against a healthy relationship. I pray for every married couple today. I pray that you will touch their hearts with compassion for one another. I pray that you will open their eyes to see the truth. I pray that each will think of the other above himself or herself. I pray that every couple will share responsibilities.

Above all, I pray that every couple will look to you as the center of their marriage, as it is a spiritual union--not just physical. May you be glorified and pleased and may marriages be blessed.

In Jesus' name I pray, amen.