Saving grace 救赎恩惠

从前有一个很爱他儿子的铁道员，有一天轨道上发生了意外，连接轨道的架桥必须放下让列车通过，不然全部的乘客必定丧命，很不幸的，铁道员的儿子也在这时候，为了帮父亲放下架桥，而跌入桥梁之间，铁道员必须做出选择：

拉下架桥拯救列车上的所有搭客？但这么做，就活活把心爱的儿子给夹死！

看着列车上不知情，甚至不在乎的乘客，铁道员做出了决定...

約 翰 福 音 3:16

神 愛 世 人 ， 甚 至 將 他 的 獨 生 子 賜 給 他 們 ， 叫 一 切 信 他 的 ， 不 至 滅 亡 ， 反 得 永 生 。

玉女之约@DisneySea

好久没有这么累了！不过真的好开心！重点不是去几次，还是去那里，重点是人！！！

今日はいい天気だ！！

很难得的normal pose咯！我喜欢，不一样的郑小欣！

明明就很像嘛，Miss霹雳小红唇！（不要偷偷袭击我！啊哈哈！）

我喜欢骑马。。。。



玩了半天。。。电池快没力了。。。



（请focus on上面那颗 八月十五的月亮）






很累的中秋夜，不过因为有你们，所以格外幸福，一点也不孤单！

爱你们！

Happy birthday uncle!

Happy birthday dear uncle!

恭喜你turn 28 years young!! I am turning 26 in 3 months and 2 days' time~~ 快追上你了！

我会努力啦! Celebrating with you in spirit! Woohoo~

Happy birthday Ethan!!

可爱的小Ethan! 1岁啦！！恭喜恭喜！

幸福的爸爸妈妈，很excited吧！

每次回去看到Ethan, 都看到他在迅速成长，哇自己真的是老了，哈哈！！！！没看到Ethan出世的时候，不过每次看到他，都觉得他是 a bundle of joy!

第一次看到baby!!!Christmas 2006!

妈咪的生日,baby 好像变成焦点instead! March 2007！

今年8月暑假回国，cute!!!! 会牙牙学语的Ethan!! (看起来很wary的脸，哈！不过对镜头很敏感，不亏是照相很棒的表哥的baby!!! ;p

24孝parents....原来天下的父母都是一样的哦！

期待今年Christmas, Ethan的成长！！ *抱一下baby*

表哥and momo, 和baby好好enjoy吧!! See you guys soon!!!

When God ran

When God Ran.mp3

Almighty God, the great I am
Immovable rock, omnipotent, powerful, awesome Lord
Victorious warrior, commanding King of Kings
Mighty conqueror, and the only time
the only time I ever saw Him run


Was when He ran to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again”
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice He said,
“Son do you know I still love you?”
He caught me by surprise when God ran

The day I left home I knew I’d broken His heart
And I wondered then if things could ever be the same
Then one night I remembered His love for me
And down that dusty road ahead I could see
It was the only time – it was the only time I ever saw Him run

And then He ran to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again”
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice He said,
“Son do you know I still love you?”
He caught me by surprise as He brought me to my knees
When God ran – I saw Him run to me


I was so ashamed, all alone and so far away
But now I know He’s been waiting for this day

I saw Him run to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again”
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice I felt His love for me again

He ran to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again”
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice He said, “Son”, He called me Son
He said, “Son do you know I still love you?”
He ran to me and then I ran to Him
When God ran

A broken and contrite heart you will not despise

2 Corinthians 7:10
Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death.

I think God is really cool. He plans things in such a way that we really cannot imagine.

Thank you for praying for me. You are God`s reminder to me, constantly, of His faithfulness, of His power, of His amazing plans! I will be brave and press on. Because you are one of God`s many miracles. So unbelievable. Yet so REAL.

He is faithful for He cannot disown himself even when we are unfaithful. Indeed oh Lord, a broken and contrite heart you will not despise.

Dear God,

Thank you for your peace that surpasses all understanding. I can feel it once again. The let-go-let-God-I-am-not-sure-what-will-happen-but-it-feels-strangely-peaceful feeling. (is this the godly sorrow that Apostle Paul was talking about in 2 Cor?)

Thank you for angels You sent in the form of sms/MSN/calls/emails/
blogs... thank you for Xinyi who has always been there, thank you for Ping who reminded me that I have so many people who love me and are rooting for me, thank you for AYS`s cute sms, thank you for HBB`s jiayou sms, verses from Candice and many more...

Thank you for giving me the strength to do what I ought to do and not what I want to do. It is so painful, so difficult. But You have never left me. I take comfort in You and I know it can only get better.

The prodigal son is back.

お帰り！

欢迎回来跟着感觉走！！

Mindset.

Show me your ways, O LORD, teach me your paths; guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long.

-- Psalm 25:4-5

Teach me. O God, to use all the circumstances of my life to-day that they may bring forth in me the fruits of holiness rather than the fruits of sin.
Let me use disappointment as material for patience:
Let me use success as material for thankfulness:
Let me use suspense as material for perseverance:
Let me use danger as material for courage:
Let me use reproach as material for longsuffering:
Let me use praise as material for humility:
Let me use pleasures as material for temperance:
Let me use pains as material for endurance.

... John Baillie (1886-1960), A Diary of Private Prayer [1949]

A prayer

Lord, behold our family here assembled. We thank Thee for
this place in which we dwell; for the love that unites us; for
the peace accorded us this day; for the hope with which we
expect the morrow; for the health, the work, the food, and the
bright skies that make our lives delightful; for our friends
in all parts of the earth, and our friendly helpers in this
foreign isle [Samoa]... Give us courage, gaiety, and the quiet
mind. Spare to us our friends, soften to us our enemies. Bless
us, if it may be, in all our innocent endeavors. If it may not
be, give us the strength to encounter that which is to come,
that we be brave in peril, constant in tribulation, temperate
in wrath, and in all changes of fortune and down to the gates
of death, loyal and loving to one another.
... Robert Louis Stevenson (1850-1894)

心のタフネス

試験の第２日...　勇気を持って、everyday is a new beginning!

家郷の空は、今日も、青いか？

Pressing on together!

Took this off from the blog of a friend:

"slowly.. step by step. don't rush ahead of God. don't play God. and certainly, don't play with the devil's fire. cos once you're burnt, the scar remains for life, on the inside of your soul - unseen to the masses, but forever imprinted on the deepest recesses of your consciousness. you feel hurt, you feel the pain, and spend so much time trying to heal the invisible but tangible wounds on the inside, when on the outside, you remain, to the world, an ever-smiling face and a little miss perfect with all her brilliance & star shine ...

dear God, please give us the courage to choose You over our pitiful plans.

dear God, please see us through the day ahead. may You be glorified in everything, through everything.

In Jesus' name, Amen. "

Thank you for your encouragement and advice, we can do it together because if God is for us, who can be against us? We will be filled with His glorious and inexpressible joy. (1 Peter 1:8-9)
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I have a friend who radiates joy, not because his life is easy, but because he habitually recognizes God's presence in the midst of all human suffering, his own as well as others'. ... My friend's joy is contagious. The more I am with him, the more I catch glimpses of the sun shining through the clouds. Yes, I know there is a sun, even though the skies are covered with clouds. While my friend always spoke about the sun, I kept speaking about the clouds, until one day I realized that it was the sun that allowed me to see the clouds. Those who keep speaking about the sun while walking under a cloudy sky are messengers of hope, the true saints of our day.

-- Henri J. Nouwen in Here and Now: Living in the Spirit. Christianity Today, Vol. 40, no. 13.

Youth Service at Shinjuku Shalom Church

For the last week of August, there was a special youth service at Shinjuku Shalom Church with people dressing up in summer kimonos! Very pretty!

Went there with Weiheng, a Singaporean who has studied in Tokyo for 4 years and counting ;) Starting to feel the vibe and energy (just like in Singapore!) I like Ps Shingo`s sermon - relevant but short and sweet!

See if you can spot us. muahaha... (nope, i was not wearing my yukata.. i need someone to help me put it on lor.. too troublesome!)

艺术家是寂寞的...

快要考试了。。。2 more weeks!!今天班主任刚公布钢琴考试的评分老师。。。有个预感会碰到我上学期的超凶老师。。。真的有她！！这学期一声不响换了另一个钢琴老师，希望前老师不会记恨，给我很低分。。。。不过很喜欢温柔的新老师，也因为她的鼓励，而立志要把曲子弹好！！

开学了，又和学校的钢琴教室成了好朋友，不过还是要去事务所和别人‘抢’房间，恨不得把我家的钢琴搬来东京！！（回新加坡时也摸不到１０次，真是口不对心啊！）不过，我回东京有开始 ａｐｐｒｅｃｉａｔｅ我的电子钢琴啦！懒惰去学校，就在家里练习咯，没办法，抢到很ｓｉａｎ了．．．



回去的时候，给了被忽略的钢琴some tender loving care,看老uncle细心地帮我tune piano...

那天练琴的时候，发现学校刚买了一台新的Yamaha grand C6!! Woohoo!! 超新咯！Warranty card写着2007年4月！很excited啦，人就是这样，有的弹还要挑，不过看到是新的，就会很兴奋因为有些钢琴真的有旧到...

这几天在默默give thanks to God for granting me a room everyday的当儿，也意识到艺术家其实是寂寞的，无论是performing arts 或是创作，和音符挣扎着，10遍20遍反复的弹，到最后的征服，音符后面的每一滴血，每一滴泪，只有自己明白吧。不过，the sweet satisfaction, 也因为付出过，而特别有味道！

Discipline。 自律。

Something that I really 缺乏。

不过这几天，发现到硬是把自己推出comfort zone,对自己耐心一点，其实真的可以的。

很讨厌背曲子，what is the point?

不过换了一下mindset, 反而很顺手的背起来了。

（那种成就感是非笔墨所能形容的。怎么说呢？发自内心的感动吧。。。）

其实敌人是自己。

要超越的是自己。

我一直这样认为。

陪伴我练琴的usual suspects - 乌龙茶/绿茶 and onigiri (哈哈！可以一边吃一边练单手嘛！）

Anyway, 最近练琴有epiphany：凡是抱着can do的attitude, 还有enjoy的心情，真的可以事半功倍嘞！虽然过程很辛苦，不过收获是值得的！

发现这个道理 is not only for 练琴， but it is about 人生。

Delaying instant gratification. (意思大概是先苦后甜吧...有一点不是很贴切 but 大概啦！）

寂寞不过不悲伤。

Alone but not lonely.

喜欢音乐所以值得。

It's all about willingness 咯！哈哈哈哈哈！！！！

Ponyの成長

Indeed 2007 is a year of victories! As Buru asked me when she was in Tokyo, "Do you feel that it is more trying this year? We really must conquer all these challenges before we can have victories huh!"

Well, 2007 has been full of ups and downs so far...从日语学校毕业，开始上音乐学校（finally提起勇气去追求我的梦想），学习独立，move out of comfort zone... it also sets me to rethink my focus and priorities in life.. 我的志愿是什么？我的原则是什么？生命中最重要的是什么？

Well, i guess this is what they call 成长。

And i thank God I have family members and friends who nag at me, cry with me, drag me out of my comfort zone, be painfully honest with me, discipline me with firm-gentleness (??），sms me because they love me sooooo much. 谢谢你们。。。。。

Sometimes I can get so caught up in 无聊things and 失去自我，是你们让我找回自己。

这阵子让你们操心了，对不起。。。谢谢你们的爱与关怀！我回来了！
Sorry for making you guys worried... I'm back!! Thank you for being so patient and loving with me！

不过，也因为经历了这些，让我更能够了解自己，也让我更珍惜what God has given me.

Well, here goes my longer-than-Oscar thank you speech to special people in my life (again！）

我在尚美的好朋友-裕翔 and Gigi,谢谢你们，尤其是裕翔 （哈哈，谢谢你的忠告！）
虽然舍不得，不过我祝福你们追求你们各自的梦想，以后还要一起加油哦！一起练琴的日子，是永远的快乐回忆!

还有每次煮东西喂我吃的欣怡，谢谢你为我出气 *哈哈* 感动！

霹雳小红唇的Keke,年纪比我小，不过好像比我会想。。。很开心那天我们有机会聊一聊，爱你！（害羞？！！哈哈！！！！）

还有Auntie咯。。。我们的谈话，让我得到不少启发，感谢一年前Keke的生日，能认识你！还有学会怎样be patient (被骗去排队咯，看我头发这么短就知道年少无知... haha!）

我爱的妈咪and哥哥...从小把我宠翻了...从小就被裹在你们的爱中，这是幸福! 我爱你们！

一直发牢骚，不过每一次还是帮我剥虾的哥哥，我喜欢和你玩ps2...哈哈！虽然你很whiney,不过 I wouldn't trade you for anything else in the world!

谢谢Uncle, who recently discovered the joy of sms-ing...看到你开心就好了！为你开心咯！谢谢你一直鼓励我追求我的梦想，从旁指引我却给我自由。。。明年来一起看樱花吧！Your positive attitude is very inspiring! Thank you ；）

cousin Lirou... great catching up! Let's claim ahma's legacy and press on in prayers!


涵 涵, Jer, Yanping and Yue...认识这么久了，14/15岁till now, haha,我们经历了很多，不过因为旅途上有你们，所以特别珍贵！Thank you for 默默supporting me through these years, and entertaining my princess-y whims ever so often! I love you guys!

可 爱的HBB, you are a joy and delight! I like to talk to you about music cos you get so excited! Thank you for keeping my passion up with your enthusiasm! And always letting me bully u!

永升/AYS/neighbor... You're the man! 20年的友谊and counting!! Yes, 我要坐你的SLK! Shoot for the moon, you can do it!

Jel!! My 恩人in Japan... without you, i will have no internet, no tv, no lights, no water now... not even a roof to stay under.. thanks for introducing me to Stephen and taking such great care of me in Tokyo.. miss you!! Thank you for the talks and sharing and advice, yeah growing up is fun!
For dear Kumi, who encourages me and sends me mails on my mobile to brighten up my days! And for sharing her wisdom with me. She is such a blessing!

Lena... you are a Godsend! Thank you for your encouragement and advice, as well as taking time off your super busy schedule to teach me how to cook so that i will not starve in sushi-land! ha!And super Sharon! Her identical twin! Thank you for superpower verse ;) Yes they are both amazing chefs! Woohoo yummy!

Also to Jaime, for those MSN-sessions, for telling me that she is proud of me.

And lovely Cheryl, who never fails to sms me when she is coming to Tokyo, my sweet sweet Princess Belle who not only has a beautiful face but also a beautiful heart!


Clara, thank you for inspiring me, you taught me more than playing the piano, it is about passion and determination. And for always being so sweet and gentle to me! I will加油！

My spiritual mum, always disciplining me out of love, but also protects me. Thank you for grooming me into a warrior for God!

Auntie Anne, who spoils me with kaya and Johnson babypowder... thanks for the makan and auntie-ing me ;D You are a delight to my heart!

Pastor Christina, my spiritual greatgrandmother ... your presence brings assurance and joy every time! I thank God for you and I am glad to inherit your gentle yet strong legacy!


Nira, a very special friend. Thank you for fleeting-moment talks and believing in me.

And many many more friends who have made a difference in my life. Thank you for being with me on my journey, 谢谢你们的耐心，让我用自己的步伐寻找自己该走的道路，在我需要时扶持着我。

因为你们的陪伴，所以我能茁壮成长。
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1 cor 13:4-8

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails.

歌 林 多 前 書 13:4-8

愛 是 恆 久 忍 耐 ， 又 有 恩 慈 ； 愛 是 不 嫉 妒 ； 愛 是 不 自 誇 ， 不 張 狂 ，

不 做 害 羞 的 事 ， 不 求 自 己 的 益 處 ， 不 輕 易 發 怒 ， 不 計 算 人 的 惡 ，

不 喜 歡 不 義 ， 只 喜 歡 真 理 ；

凡 事 包 容 ， 凡 事 相 信 ， 凡 事 盼 望 ， 凡 事 忍 耐 。

愛 是 永 不 止 息 。

1コリント 13:4～8

愛は忍耐強い。
愛は情け深い。
ねたまない。
愛は自慢せず、高ぶらない。
礼を失せず、自分の利益を求めず、いらだたず、恨みを抱かない。
不義を喜ばず、真実を喜ぶ。
すべてを忍び、すべてを信じ、すべてを望み、すべてに耐える。
愛は決して滅びない。